Day Two: I started with trying to find a working OHP, which took me long enough. I then was able to start drawing silhouettes, and do it fairly large scale. So that felt pretty good. Although by the time I'd done a few, I wasn't so sure if it was such a good idea anymore. It's so annoying, it's all I've thought about recently and now I'm starting to doubt whether I can make this into 'the best project I've ever done'...

SIGH.

I saw Ashley later on walking around with a box of screws, bolts and metal and instantly asked her what she was up to. Turns out she plans on making a Steampunk type thing too. Whether I inspired her, I sincerely doubt but I was interested anyway. She said I should come along with her to the skip and see if we could find anything and we found tonnes of stuff. We even nagged the engineering guys for stuff and they didn't disappoint!

Wandering around the skip we found a migwelder (I had no idea. I had to be told several times what it was because I kept forgetting the name of it) and apparently we could take it as it was broken. We hauled it down to Sarah's workshop and asked if we could take it apart. I think she was even more excited than we were to get stuck in. So with her (and Jenny decided to come along too...) help, we took it apart and found the most amazing and intriguing machine parts. By the end, we had tonnes of stuff to work with!

I had great fun taking it all apart and collecting all this stuff... my only worry now is what the hell will I do with it? How can I actually put it into my work? I have all these ideas but I'm worried they won't work and... oh. I don't know. I worry the teachers have high expectations of me and I won't or can't fulfill them. I'm taking on all their suggestions and ideas I just.... ugh. This is supposed to be fun, not stressful!

I had another chat with Nicky which was pretty interesting. I don't think she (or any of the teachers in fact) had noticed my life-size painting on the wall. I pointed at it while we were talking and she seemed surprised almost... Eh. She suggested I think about processes in the body or something; trying to show the nervous system, emotion or even thought as it goes through the brain. I liked that idea a lot! At the end she said, "Well, that's the most positive feedback I've ever had."

I try and stay positive, even if worry and negativity are creeping up on me...